Today is the restart of the rest of life…

So I’ve decided that today is going to be the big day, I’m not living like this any more.

All I have been thinking of is the negatives and how hard it is for things to change, and I have realised I have been preparing for this change for years and suprise suprise years later I’m still preparing.

I am not expecting a miracle, years of eating to much, and not exercising enough and never really figuring out how to manage time is not going to change over night but if I carry on the way I am going it’s never going to begin.

I always use excuses why I can’t start, I’m in to much pain, I’m to tired, I don’t have enough time.

I’m 28 years old and scared of not being able to play with my children by 30, that’s the joys of being a disabled mum, you only have so many spoons (energy for those of you not in the lingo).

I am scared not ready, sore and tired but for some reason never felt so inspired, so this is my accountabuddy, the thing that makes me feel like I can’t quit.

I live in the past or the future always worrying about who I could have been who I will be so instead I am going to concentrate on who I am now.

So here it goes no turning back anymore this post is not the first post I wanted, the one I spent months preparing for, waiting for the right moment, this is the one I am doing now, no excuses, a messy beginning but it’s my now.

For myself, for my children the start begins now.